I’m trying so desperately to open up my mind to you; to not filter out what my internal self finds unimportant or crazy because I am imperfect and broken.
I wish to find you. I am writing here to you to tell you that I open myself up to you, ready to do whatever you ask of me. I have understood that you have shown me things for a reason and that my ultimate path has yet to be fulfilled.
Yet I am lost. To claim I know what I am to do now would be a falsity. I have deciphered the visions you show me and I have understood the message, yet I feel a million miles away from your guidance.
God, I ask you now to reach out to me in a way I have not experienced before. I have felt your presence inside of me and I know that this is the time. I ask you to heal the fractures I have acquired from eons of aimless wandering. I ask you to energize my body, to calm my mind, and to purify both to better receive those that come in your name. I ask you to expand the unconsciousness that has guided me in this lifetime so very well. I ask you to calm the powers of chaos and destruction that frustrate me and keep me from your love and knowledge.
I am writing to you because I know you hear me. I can feel the stirring inside my chest and the buzzing inside my head. I can feel that my ultimate destiny is approaching fast and I beg of you to not let me pass it by. Call the ultimate truth to my attention and allow it to beckon me.
I am listening and I am finally ready to accept what I was created to achieve. I now surrender myself to you.